This is the time of year when I am so thankful for this little girl. I am so unbelievably grateful that I have this being. She is so funny in the things she says and such a love. I am so looking forward to our holiday together so that we can talk and play and cuddle and drink hot cocoa and dream and whisper and sing and laugh.So continuing on the theme of fear of success, the next part of the article I am reading has this to say about the fear of success:
Fear of success can result in:
A lack of effort to achieve goals you have set for yourself in school, on the job, at home, in relationships, or in your personal growth.
Self-destructive behavior: tripping yourself up to make sure you do not sustain a certain level of success or achievement you once had in school, on the job, at home, in relationships, or in your personal growth.
Losing the motivation or the desire to grow, achieve, and succeed.
Feeling guilt, confusion, and anxiety when you do achieve success. This leads you to falter, waver, and eventually lose your momentum.
Your choosing to do just the opposite of what you need to do to be happy, healthy, and successful.
Reinforcing your chronic negativity, chronic pessimism, and chronic lack of achievement since you cannot, visualize yourself in a contented, successful life.
Denouncing your achievements and accomplishments; seeking ways in which you can denigrate yourself enough to lose what you've gained.
So to move forward, I have to change my behavior in the following ways to overcome my fear:
Learning to reinforce yourself for the hard work, effort, and sacrifices you've made to achieve success
Being able to honestly appraise your level of achievement, success, and accomplishment
Accepting yourself as being healthy, "together,'' happy, successful, prosperous, and accomplished
Not giving yourself any excuses for being unsuccessful
Giving others in your life permission to give you honest, open, candid feedback when they see you self-destructing or backsliding
Monitoring your level of commitment and motivation to reach your goals
Visualizing your life when you are successful
Giving others credit, recognition, and support for their personal achievements, successes, and accomplishments
Honest, open, realistic self-talk that encourages you to work your hardest to achieve the goals you have set for yourself
Accepting the compliments and recognition of others with an open heart and mind
There are questions I have to answer within the next part and will do so throughout the week. Wish me luck!
The list was longer, but these are the ones that spoke to me. In addition, I suffer from the annoyance of my own failure. I have failed myself and subsequently others, much this week. I am not focused at work the way I should be and am not delegating tasks and so they are going unaccomplished. I am running extremely short-tempered and I am not sure if I am not sleeping because I am mad or if I am mad because I am not sleeping. There is also the possibility that I am hormonal. G's ex-wife wants more money - as if this seems shocking. My patience with the department in its current state is waning. We are about to make a huge change in our environment and the negativity surrounding this unprecedented undertaking is ridiculous. I am not exercising because it is cold outside, I cannot get motivated enough at night to pack my gym bag, and I am just too tired. I am eating terribly because I am tired and grumpy and all of this is a vicious cycle. If you have any thoughts as to how I can get off of this roller coaster, please send them over.
