Saturday, May 30, 2009
Someone I don't know said something so profound and suitable, that she could have been speaking to me directly and personally. "There is a point in which grief becomes absurd". The great lengths I have gone through to grieve various parts of my life and the abuse I have tolerated from myself is, well...absurd. The universe brings you what you need or what you need to hear.
Friday, May 29, 2009
I have had friends my entire life, some better than others, but always I have easily made friends. It has taken 36 years, but I feel great about allowing my friends to love and support me unconditionally. They are the family I chose or who have chosen me. Much like my husband, who has loved me through my growth and maturity, so have my friends. Until now, I did not thoroughly understand that I can be loved without a self serving motive.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I am missing my daughter's kindergarten graduation today and it is breaking my heart. I want to celebrate every milestone for her and to make up for those that were stolen from me through the death of Mackenzie. I am so proud of my girl and hope she feels that every day, no matter her choices. I am going through some things with my own mother that reinforce my need to do my relationship with Little so differently. Part of why I am missing her event is in an effort to create the woman I know my daughter will need me to be. Everything I do is for myself, my husband, and my Little and I feel so satisfied being a Threesome. Being away from them makes me less than whole in my heart and soul.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
May Has Already Made Me Tired
Ok, so May is a disaster for me. My right hand man has been on vacation and my left hand has been out with pneumonia. I worked 11 days in a row and got batty! Finals are this week and then I have to study for a certification exam that I am taking in Vegas on May 27th. So, I will spend Memorial Weekend packing as I leave on the 26t, and studying as I have to have 80% to pass the test. School starts again the first week of June, my new boss starts June 1st, and my in-laws are coming. No, I am not back to running and yes, I suck - but I am still losing weight. I get my numbers checked again on Monday and will update the news, though it usually takes a week.
Monday, May 4, 2009
Cast Away
I have not gone away and I am not done with my journey. I am, however, working every day due to unfortunate circumstances and allowing my favorite person to take a damn vacation.
I am also trying to finish this quarter successfully. I have finals next week. I am also trying to study for a certification exam I am taking on May 27th in Las Vegas. I am also trying to getting healthy, sleep enough, eat right, and not lose my mind. Ok, maybe I have gone away a little, but I will be back. Promise!
I am also trying to finish this quarter successfully. I have finals next week. I am also trying to study for a certification exam I am taking on May 27th in Las Vegas. I am also trying to getting healthy, sleep enough, eat right, and not lose my mind. Ok, maybe I have gone away a little, but I will be back. Promise!
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